Left Behind: Eternal Forces

I am scared.

"This game immerses children in present-day New York City -- 500 square blocks, stretching from Wall Street to Chinatown, Greenwich Village, the United Nations headquarters, and Harlem. The game rewards children for how effectively they role play the killing of those who resist becoming a born again Christian. The game also offers players the opportunity to switch sides and fight for the army of the AntiChrist, releasing cloven-hoofed demons who feast on conservative Christians and their panicked proselytes (who taste a lot like Christian).

Is this paramilitary mission simulator for children anything other than prejudice and bigotry using religion as an organizing tool to get people in a violent frame of mind? The dialogue includes people saying, "Praise the Lord," as they blow infidels away." -Link

Anti Entropic Part II

So, after my last post, I was feeling inspired. I barrowed my mom's laptop, grabbed my digital camera, and installed the "Entropy Cam" on top of the spice rack. There it would stay for the next 10 days, dutifuly recording a frame every 2 minutes. In this way I hoped to capture the entropic forces at work in my kitchen.

For the first few days, after having recently been cleaned, the kitchen remained in order. The cleanliness of the kitchen inspired motivation to maintain order. However, as the week continued, order began to slip. This in turn lowered motivation. It is a vicious cycle. It is exponential entropy. Order gives way to Chaos.

But be not fooled, chaos IS NOT randomness. The dispersal of items is not arbitrary, but the result of complex forces. Hunger, thirst, running late for work and neglecting to clean up. Items are used, forgotten, left out, moved.

Chaotic forces govern the workings of my mind. The interaction of several billion neurons erupts into my chaotic cognizance. I am. I exist and my existance is punctuated by emotion. Pleasure, Depression, Excitement, Inspiration, Anxiety. A long period of inactivity then a storm. Pent up frustration erupting into a sudden rage. Sexual tension built slowly and released in orgasm. The ecstatic joy of love and the gut wrenching pain of loss.

Anti Entropic

Lately I have been obsessively cleaning and organizing my apt. I guess it's what I do when I'm feeling anxious. I feel like my mind is chaotic and I can't focus. By giving order to the world around me, I hope to give order to my mind and ease this anxious tension in my chest. But entropy persists. The moment I am finished giving order to the world, it begins it's desent toward chaos. Dirty dishes pile up next to the sink. Crumbs accumulate on the floor. Reminders jotted down hastily on little scraps of paper clutter my desk. Ideas that were never jotted down amass in the back of my head, clouding my thoughts.

Shiva on the Roof

I uploaded a few photos of Shiva out on the roof.
She likes to go out there every chance she gets.

Glassblowing

I finally uploaded some photos from my weekend at Snow Farm. Perhaps I'll do a little write up of the experience soon also. It was pretty awesome!

Sorry, Can't Help You....It's Out Of Our Hands

I want to be treated like a PERSON....Not a FUCKING NUMBER. The System is Down! They give you shit, and no recourse to challange it. This all powerful, unforgiving MACHINE expects me to just bend over and take it! Fuck that!

I'm Listening to Techno Music

I'm done for the semester! Why do I still feel stressed out? Anyway, I've neglected this here blog for too long and I have lots to talk about, lots of photos, and lots of Art projects to post. But for now I'm gonna try to unwind a bit.